April 19th, 2016
My name is Daniel and I have created this site with you to share with you the awe inspiring glory of our Father in heaven, by sharing the miraculous results of His hands reshaping my life.
For the past nine years (since my formal baptism with my church), I have considered myself a Christian, though you wouldn’t always see much evidence of it in my walk. However, 4 weeks ago (a little after midnight) March 22nd everything changed!
In the hours leading up to this event, which I will call my “conception”, I was having a conversation with my wife, the mother of my two precious sons (ages 9 and 12), discussing the real possibility of a divorce. After 12 years of marriage, we had reached the point where we were more like friends who were married, as opposed to a husband and wife sharing a life of love together. Feeling dissatisfied over the last few years, I found myself scanning the greener pastures of independence, fantasizing of a life of an uninhibited pursuit of a youth long gone. I had come to a point that I truly felt there wasn’t any other way (outside divorce) that I could see us both being happy (at the same time) again. Having never had the courage to bring the full extent of these feelings to light before, I wasn’t budging from my position and was completely detached from the emotional weight of the conversation at hand. My wife wasn’t only hurt by the implications of this conversation; she was crushed.
But I remained unaffected, hiding behind a veil of pride, selfishness, and self pity. That is until something magical happened. In the midst of her pleas to reason, she said something that awoke something hidden deep inside of me and propelled me onto the path which I tread today. She said, “Just give it a try… For 3 or 6 months and you will see that I will be different. I love you so much and I will show you how much I love you. I am going to love you whether you love me back or not.” And that was it. In that moment everything changed.
At the same moment my wife was pleading with me , I heard God whispering much the same thing. “I love you so much and I am showing you how much I love you, whether you love me back or not!” I felt my heart burn as it was overwhelmed with His glorious love and the only thing I could do is to pour that love into my beautiful wife and the results have been astounding.
The days that have followed have been nothing short of miraculous. No longer do I hunger for the treasures of this world. That hunger has been replaced with an unquenchable thirst for the love and the word of my Father in heaven. I can no longer watch television or movies, my drive for material success has all but died, and the Lord has been steadily revealing His word in me on a daily basis in a way I could have never imagined. Being flesh, I obviously will have my struggles from time to time, but these too are being removed from me one by one and with each one removed comes an even greater love for my Father in Heaven and a genuine appreciation for the grace that He has afforded me.
From that moment of my “conception” through today, I have been in the process of being molded by the very hands of God into the man that He has called me out of the wilderness to be. I call it my “gestational period”. I am in the process of being born into an awakening that I am eagerly anticipating. As for these daily insights that God has revealed to me, I will share some of these in detail in some of my future posts. I look forward to sharing this intimate relationship in a way that sheds the light of our Lord Jesus into the lives of those who struggle and give all glory to our Father in heaven.
By the Grace of HIS Love,
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.